Pre-school. Nursery. Day care.
Yesterday, I felt one of the many fears of parents: letting your child learn and letting them go to explore the world.
I never expected my emotion or reaction yesterday. I thought that I’m gonna cry and all. But what I felt were: fear, being possessive, protective, anxiousness, happiness and being proud.
We’ve looked for a suitable school that is within our budget. It’s a semi-private school near our home which caters just a few hours a day to teach our children values and some basic education.
I think they’re only 10 in the class. My only goal is to have her explore her social skills.
When I saw my girl seated and the teacher asked the parents and guardians to go outside, I suddenly had a separation anxiety.
She’s only 3 yrs old, what if the teacher don’t pay attention to her? What if she’ll be alone, be bullied or aloof. What if she holds back and don’t interact. What i she can’t understand the lessons? So many what ifs!!! I’m scared that she won’t keep up since she’s late to enroll.
An hour of waiting and eavesdropping, they had a recess. And I see my daughter stumbling down with the other children since I have her snacks.
First hour was over and I feel her happiness and overwhelming wonder. She’s a good observant, this I know, and people keep telling me that she’s a smart kid, so when I saw her closely observing and acting to belong, I feel so proud.
Playtime, she tries and think how to approach the other kids.
I want to cry. I know I still need to homeschool her, I’m just so proud of her. She’s approaching, opening up to other kids. I pray that she’ll be a good student and learn all that is needed to learn and more!
Not only that, she got her first 5-stars!!!
Her second day was a bliss. Her nanny said she shared her snack to her new friend. I know I’ll always worry but I’ll try to teach and equip her to face the world. 🙂