our helper got me this breakfast: pandesal with ham and egg. appropriate quote, right?! 🙂
… and these ignited my brain cells. LOL!
remember when i told you about that i got hurt/bump first before any bad thing happen? like a premonition and stuff?
well, today on my way to work, i clumsily slid down a walkway. i got bruised and a little sprain. and yes it hurt.
there were men walking after me and they don’t know if they’ll help me ’cause it seemed like i got hurt so badly. but in reality, i actually wanna laugh it out loud. hahaha! i just thought if i laughed they might think i’m crazy or too embarrassed. lol! well i am!!! not because i slipped, i’m embarrassed because i’m wearing leggings and i was thinking: did they did saw my butt fall down? RLOL!
one of the men told me so roll my feet in a bottle so it won’t hurt that much. i know what to do, but it gives me a sense of importance because this man that i don’t know, cares. 😀 (God bless him!)
the physical pain is nothing to me but the thought of “why didn’t i walk slowly?… i know it’s slippery because the grass is newly cut and wet and on a pavement that (i know for a fact beforehand) is slippery… why did i not slowed down?… I KNOW!!!”
yeah, it’s been bugging me from the moment i slipped until i got here in the office (i’m blogging again so don’t make me an example, not a good employee, LOL!). i always got that moment that i know something will or might happen badly.
before, i’ll stop, think, don’t act or don’t take a risk because of this so-called awareness but today i just don’t give a damn.
is it me growing up backwards? i’ve been so strict and been good a girl growing up that i forgot to enjoy. i seldom make mistakes. am i too empathetic that i know the feeling without experiencing it or i’m just to damn scared to be hurt?
i’m having a little self-assessment. ’cause now i found myself that i just don’t care if i’m hurt then something bad will happen. i prayed to God, i know He’ll give a lot of trials, then so be it. just make my daughter healthy and bright and happy. i know i’m not in a position to make a deal with Him but, I know that I’ll go crazy if something bad will happen to my girl.
now, i’m accepting whatever it is on my plate. i don’t want to regret anymore. i just don’t want to regret anymore.
anyways, i’ll have more bump and bruises until i learned how to listen to signs. for now, i’ll be careful.
hmm… what’s with this ham and egg? makes me go realizing stuff… lol.
we all have that moment. 🙂
Take Care guys! God bless