my nanny teases me that i have a weekend disease– laziness.
i just don’t want to move. don’t want to think. just want to stay still, listen.
in a bigger perspective, my life is a screw up. don’t want to shout it out. like i wrote before, i live only now for my daughter. i see no other reason nor purpose. i still don’t know where we’ll be on christmas. if we went to my parents house, i think i’ll be mentally and emotionally unstable. lol!
then comes the financial aspects of life. the hardship of being a single mom and being a breadwinner is beginning to take its toll on me.
last year we had a sad christmas, i pray that this coming will be good.