we all have fears. mine would be losing my self control and to push away all that is dear to me. i don’t really get angry that much. i think i said it before, i find it waste of time to be grumpy. but right now, i don’t knwo how to let it out.
i don’t want to dwell again and again about my failed marriage or the things in my plate [responsibilities that i shouldn’t bear].
blessed. that’s what keeps me going on. thinking that i am so blessed. even if i wanted something more, thinking that i deserve more, i still treasure what i have now, ’cause i am blessed.
i’m not religious or spiritual but i have faith.
my insomnia is back. it’s been two weeks since it started again. maybe i am just worried. yeah, worried. worried for something i don’t have a grasp on.
imagine catching a broken butterfly but then it flew not knowing if it healed or not. i’m worried about that butterfly.
thinking too much. 😦